17 weeks

We had our 17 week check up today. I lost more weight, but my doctor assures me it's fine. I'm measuring right on time. He went to check the heart beat and it couldn't be heard. That was the worse feeling I have ever had. I could see that my doctor was also a little nervous. Naturally the water works turned on, and I lost it. Tyler and my doctor were trying to comfort me, but it wasn't working! Dr. Hamilton took us in for a quick ultrasound to make sure the baby was fine. So I laid there feeling terrible, Tyler next to me, and my doctor standing beside me with his hand on my leg. At first I didnt love Dr. Hamilton because he's so laid back, but as high strung as I am, I think he's exactly the doctor I needed. As soon as the ultrasound showed up on the screen I could see a little heart just flickering away, and a beautiful baby moving around. I have NEVER felt so happy, in love, relieved and just in awe in my life! So afterall the 3 minute heart ache, the appointment ended better than I expected. It was the first time we had gotten to see our baby, so it was an unexpected surprise (Dr. Hamilton also told us he wouldnt be charging for this ultrasound, woo hoo! One less bill! ha!) Seeing my child for the first time, was unreal. It's amazing to be so in love with someone you haven't met or seen in person. We go tomorrow morning at 10:45 for our 3d-4d Ultrasound to find out if the baby is a Jackson or a Sophia/Aubrey (we can't agree on a girl name). I will post a picture of me I took Monday (16 1/2) weeks along and a picture of the ultrasound! It is a great picture, you can see the arms and legs, torso, even the little mouth, eyes and nose!